I went to the doctor last week to discuss whether I need my anxiety medicine or not.  I posted a few weeks ago about what the Lord showed me about my anxiety and visiting the doctor was my next step. I honestly feel like it was a wasted step but I wanted to go through the proper channels.

I spoke with the doctor about how I’ve been on Zoloft for 14 years and I really don’t think I need it. I asked if they could test my serotonin levels but they said that’s not very accurate. They said the only way to really know if I need it is to start weening off of it. I expected this and was getting anxious about it but I pushed myself and now I’m on half the dose. It’s only been days but I feel great ! The weening process is slow and I won’t be completely off of it for about 2 months. I’d prefer to take it slow so my body can take it easy.

I bought a book at a christian book store called How to Handle Your Emotions : Anger, Depression, Fear, Grief, Rejection and Self Worth by June Hunt. While the only thing I suffer from at this point is Fear, I know the other emotions will be a battle so I felt it was a good fit for my home. The fear section really hits on what I experience and provides scripture to help me spiritually and mentally.

God allows us to fear due to practical reasons. He doesn’t create us to be fearful.  I would love it if you could pray for me during this transition.

“God is my Salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, The Lord, is my strength and my song; He has become my Salvation”  (Isaiah 12:2)

“Do not be fainthearted or afraid; do not be terrified or give way to panic before them. For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory” (Deuteronomy 20:3-4)